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- Sep 8, 2015
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Hello to all. I'm attempting my first post, so don't judge too hard. So I applied to Target as a rebound job after my last position didn't work out due to major anxiety, which prevented me from doing the job. So desperate to get work, I mustered up the strength to apply to Target and used my decent social skills to get a job there within a few days after contacting HR almost immediately.
I've always been an anxious person socially, and I'm 23 now, post college life, thought I would grow out of that condition over time, but no, not really. I've been an avoidant person since middle school and don't deal with conflict, which I know compounds my issue. Anyways, back to the issue at hand, which is going to be my job performance, and I seriously need advice or at least some consoling that I'm not going to die or ruin the Target store I work at and cause a huge issue, which happens every day I come into the back room. Day 1 of training, I was told i was supposed to be working softlines and backup cashier, which, to my dismay, caused my panic attack and overwhelming dread to turn into a breakdown in front of HR. They in turn gave me an out to get away from the customer service side and exclusively put me in back room, which, to an anxious wreck, doesn't bode well for such an environment.
So the main problem I have is more of a personal issue that this forum can't help me with, and I'm now taking medication, but I dread work because I can never pull batches in time and always have to get help from the other more experienced BR team members, who get frustrated with me, because they're already super busy with backstock, 12 steps, audits, pogs, have to pick up my slack on the salesfloor asking for item pulls. I don't ever relax enough to create a method to the craziness and end up getting so frustrated and visibly confused and bumping into everything. It's so embarrasing doing my best and still having 25-30 cafs left with only 20 minutes left in the hour. And I don't want to quit but it may be my only option, except it would be messed up that there's only 2 BR day team members if I did that. Anyways, this is more of a rant, but I'm so isolated and hating avoiding everyone, cause I'm actually a decent, fun and educated young man. Anxiety kills!
I've always been an anxious person socially, and I'm 23 now, post college life, thought I would grow out of that condition over time, but no, not really. I've been an avoidant person since middle school and don't deal with conflict, which I know compounds my issue. Anyways, back to the issue at hand, which is going to be my job performance, and I seriously need advice or at least some consoling that I'm not going to die or ruin the Target store I work at and cause a huge issue, which happens every day I come into the back room. Day 1 of training, I was told i was supposed to be working softlines and backup cashier, which, to my dismay, caused my panic attack and overwhelming dread to turn into a breakdown in front of HR. They in turn gave me an out to get away from the customer service side and exclusively put me in back room, which, to an anxious wreck, doesn't bode well for such an environment.
So the main problem I have is more of a personal issue that this forum can't help me with, and I'm now taking medication, but I dread work because I can never pull batches in time and always have to get help from the other more experienced BR team members, who get frustrated with me, because they're already super busy with backstock, 12 steps, audits, pogs, have to pick up my slack on the salesfloor asking for item pulls. I don't ever relax enough to create a method to the craziness and end up getting so frustrated and visibly confused and bumping into everything. It's so embarrasing doing my best and still having 25-30 cafs left with only 20 minutes left in the hour. And I don't want to quit but it may be my only option, except it would be messed up that there's only 2 BR day team members if I did that. Anyways, this is more of a rant, but I'm so isolated and hating avoiding everyone, cause I'm actually a decent, fun and educated young man. Anxiety kills!