TToETL-SF/GE and new GSTL (yes, both of you): oh my God, get fucked. How about one of you actually status with me and give some actual fucking leadership instead of talking to me in ways where I can hear the daggers get sharpened in the background? I show up today and learn that my opening GSTL has left early, so I have no bearings of the front, only learning that I lose all but one of my cashiers at 7:15 tonight. Well, technically, all but two, but one was working our new SCO lanes and couldn't just easily hop on a regular lane. Oh, and that SCO also needed to run to service desk to assist when necessary because our SD called out and you guys didn't fucking replace them. Then, ETL, you ask me about the status of a tub of merchandise that I wasn't even aware of? Yes, really, I wasn't aware of it, no matter how much you tell me that I told you that I had the SCO cashier working on it. Well, surprise! It's 7:30 and it's not going to get done because, again, literally no one can break away, no matter how early I get to close the lanes, because I'm working with half of my normal crew as it is.
And don't tell me that "every other GSA and GSTL has these problems and works through them." I don't care if it's true. I suspect it isn't, though. I think it's a load of fucking horseshit you're throwing at me as another reason I'll be cut off in a couple of months. And, new GSTL, if you hound me one more time about checking the restrooms because our store is winning on payroll but still too cheap to schedule a cart attendant, so help me motherfucking God. And a double fuck you because I do get it done! I check the bathroom log today and our morning GSTL didn't do it at all, but my name's definitely there, and I'll fucking put money down and bet that I'll be told it's not good enough, or not often enough, or not thorough enough even though I'm trying to squeeze it in by myself with a barebones team who are already covering three bases at once at all times.
And yeah, okay, I guess I'm a failure at redcards. I legitimately don't know how the new GSTL manages to drum up so many in their shifts. Really, I don't; they're clearly good at RCs, I guess. But with all of this shit going on, I'm ready to leave. I'm not cut out for GSA. Maybe I am, but all this bullshit isn't worth this pay. I shouldn't be taking an extra 50 cents an hour to come home feeling like a fucking failure every time I have to talk to one of you two, but I am, because I've got too many plans that I fear would be upset by trying to get a new job and having to explain the time off I need in the coming months. But I can just feel that I'm somehow going to get the boot or a sudden deluge of CAs and finals before any other GSAs, even the ones who call out 55% of the time. And if I am.... well, fuck. I'd almost be okay with it at this point.
Fuck.